Day 4 of the Master Cleanse: WTH am I doing?!

So today was a pretty crappy day. I've been in a crabby mood and I have been having serious food cravings. I've also been kind of gassy and bloated. I'm kind of regretting not doing the Salt Water Flush last night.

I just ran to the library on my break and took a looksie at the Master Cleanse book. According to that, I've been doing a few things "wrong." First of all, I'm not drinking grade B maple syrup. I'm actually not quite sure if my syrup has a grade, and if it does I'm sure I picked A. Second, I thought I had a choice of doing the herbal lax tea OR the salt water flush, but apparently you have to do both! And I skipped last night, which probably explains the bloating and cranky mood.

Now I'm just really feeling like I want to end it now, especially if I'm not following the instructions to a T - I wouldn't want to harm my body in any way. But then again I'm also thinking about how I've already invested so many days on it, it would just be a waste to end it now. I could probably go on and just finish the last 7 days by doing it the right way, but I'm feeling really antsy. I'm overcome with this crazy food craving and emotionally I think I'm going a little insane.

I'm starting to think to myself, "Hey, maybe I'm not cut out for this cleanse. Maybe I should just adopt a new diet like the raw food diet or veganism! At least then I can eat...." Ahhhhh I don't know what to do. I almost feel like a failure because I jumped into this thing without being FULLY prepared. But then again I would probably be even more of a FAIL if I kept doing it the wrong way and didn't admit to my mistakes and somehow end up dying or something.

So I don't know........what I might do is hold off on the cleanse now, do more research, and then try again next week. Plenty of people have given up halfway through and tried again and succeeded. Nothing wrong with that, right?!